activist?

i saw a bunch of people on sunrise holding up signs saying : "yes on 8" "adam and eve, not adam and steve" "honk for 8" etc. and even though there was a large sea of yellow signs, i saw one or two blues ones that said "no on 8" i commend those people. because it takes a lot to join a crowd of ignorant homophobes and go against everything they say.

i'm usually not one to care for propositions and aimless rules made by the people of california. but this one hits a strong nerve with me. the fact that people are against gay marriage is beyond me. i'm sorry that you cannot accept something that is different from your lifestyle, but news flash: not too long ago this great society we call america was against INTERRACIAL MARRIAGES and it was ILLEGAL. see how stupid that sounds now a days? we used to chastise interracial couples the same way we are chastising homosexual couples today. and your marriage with 2.5 kids and a puppy is not doing to mean anything different just because your next door neighbors - who happen to be gay - are married. NO it will not be taught in schools. NO it will not start a "gay epidemic" and NO gay people do not make gay babies. gay people can't even make heterosexual babies. the things you say against gay marriage are STUPID and IGNORANT and it belongs back in the 16th century.

when did we become a nation that was so INTOLERANT of others. we preach EQUALITY and FREEDOM but we deny people their NATURAL rights.

be smart
promote freedom and equality
present LOVE

vote NO on 8

intoxication

there's nothing i prefer more in this world
than a sprinkle of water
from those overburdened clouds
better than a shot of vodka
i am intoxicated by the rain
the pricks of my skin as it falls down
reminds me of times when i was truly happy
it has been nearly a year since i've last seen it
and its return - our reunion - was well worth the wait

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if you couldn't tell, i really do love the rain
and yes, the smell of rain does intoxicate me
excuse the cheesy poem
but i found it necessary
btw, you should watch "you can vote however you like"
that video makes me happy

oh, and it's not because you are [insert race here]....
it's because you're STUPID

a well put off return

if you bothered to notice, i've been missing for a long time. the stress of school has seriously gotten to me. my senioritis is not as bad as i thought it would be. i'm actually pretty on top of things. i got a 4.0 last term. BITCH WHAAAAAAAAAAAAT. but the only thing that sucks is that for the nest couple of months i'm gonna be staying after school a lot more often and battling my work schedule. when i come home i just want an hour or two to rest, and when i actually do start my work, i stay up late nights to finish it. it's not that i have senioritis, it's that i have BAD TIME MANAGEMENT. and i am not afraid to admit it. with all school talk aside, life has been all right.

weeks come and go. and most of the time i can't tell the difference of one saturday from another. but, who really cares about all of that. because in the end my life really does consist of: school, work, mock trial, and youth court. chyeeah.

simply suggestive.

i realized that i haven't been as into this as i used to. so i sat around and thought of a good topic i could enlighten you with. i was inspired by this quote off flyy_quotes:

"Be the best you can be, & the worst without getting caught."

so i thought about all the things we can do without getting caught. how, a lot of our laws in the world, we take as mere suggestions. for example, the speed limit. i see it as, "i suggest you go 45", but really, who does go on speed limit when there's not a cop around nowadays. same with the cell phone thing, a lot of people take it as suggestions, instead of actually getting off their damn phones and pay attention to the roads. but, can we make this comparison to something more real? something more relate-able?

i thought about it for a while, and then i figured it out. or so i think. EVERYTHING in life is a suggestion. your parents tell you to get good grades. they've made a suggestion, and you in the end make up your mind to follow it or not. your friend tells you to get that girl/guy's number, but it's up to you to go and get it. people can tell you anything that want. they can ramble on and preach about their beliefs. but what good are someone else's beliefs? what's the point of someone else telling us what they think?

well, i think we tell each other what we think, because we believe we can make a difference, but can we really? how easy is it to change someone's mind? if it was so easy, many people would be swayed by barack obama's views of hope and change. or touched by john mccain's 5 years as a POW. we like to BELIEVE that one thing we say or do can make a difference. and sorry to burst your 5 year old ideologies, but that's not true. sorry for the cynicism. i try to be happy, i promise.

but on a political note:

goodbye summer

hello fall.

this cold weather reminds me that things change. it's a new year, a new life, and new start. a chance to start over. take myself away from where i was a year ago. and i realize that things are changing, but maybe not in the way i want them to change. yesterday, i had to say goodbye. and it wasn't as bittersweet as i wanted it to be. actually, it was just bitter. the sweet part decided to screw me over and just not show up. i wished it went easy. i wished it went down a lot smoother than the alcohol. but it stung. stung more than the bite on my finger. burned more than the liquor. my head was spinning last night. a result of stupidity and desperate attempts to "have fun." but my head didn't hurt as much as my heart. i just wanted to scream out "forget me." if only it was so easy. i don't want to cry anymore. if only holding back my tears wasn't so hard. i only wished i was intoxicated enough to tell you everything and then forget it the next day. then, you couldn't hold it against me. but nothing ever flows my way. so what now? i guess it's time to stop moping, and do something.

enjoy life

confused, seriously.

life works in a wonderful way. constantly going against you, and making your brain hurt for days on end. today was an interesting take on things. it's been a while since i've heard "what ever happened to you and boy." and i smile, like always and act like i have no idea what they are talking about. but today was a little different. i admitted to liking him to someone outside my comfort zone for once. and apparently, he likes? liked? whatever, me back. ah, but after today's conversation, i can see that nothing is meant to happen. it kinda made me sad. because, deep down somewhere, i still like him and wish for something to happen. today confused me. thanks day, you ruined my life

infinite boredom

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