so, i've been a huge hikki fan for sometime now. i think first love was the first jpop song i ever listened to. i definitely heard her on the radio today. her new song "come back to me" is damn good. i mean, her exodus was pretty good too. but sometimes, hikki + english = weird songs.
there's the mv for come back to me. she looks stunning in this video. that haircut is love. she looks like she belongs back in the final distance days.
but yeah, i usually listen to jpop/kpop/cpop, etc, etc more than american music. but thanks to america's best dance crew and the hot billboard 100 has kept me up to date with the real world. fave song right now definitely is a toss up between boom boom pow by BEP or numba 1 (the tide is high) by kardinal offishall, maybe because that song reminds me of the lizzie mcquire movie. oh yeeeeah.
speaking of movies. there's a new fast and furious coming out. oh yeah, cause the next thing we need is more white boys racing rice rockets. i hope another fm song is in.
so did i say how much i desperately want to go to isa? well, i do. but tickets are almost sold out and basically no one else wants to go or know what it is. i was to see fm again and meet wf and passion. rawrr. i wish i lived in the bay <3.>
speaking of the bay? actually, this has nothing to do with the bay. i downloaded se7en's american song "girlz". i actually like it. beat's pretty hot. and i found that song via youtube and then i found it via limewire.
i love youtube.
RANDOM YOUTUBE TIME.
coolest crew dancing to my current fave fm song. girls on the dance floor is my anthem, next to 3d.
nigahiga is a knee slapper. i sure many have seen this. it's quite hilarious.
i freaking love epik high. there's a kid at my school that looks like tablo. no lie. anyways, when tablo raps, it's total love. and he does it in english. oh shit. "i ba-rock this show o-ba-ma'self."
enjoy.
random blog much?
20090309
20090301
wtff
i haven't been this pissed off in a long long while. saturday was a shitload of fun, too bad i woke up with a screaming hangover. and i woke up having to answer my phone and listen to some motherfucker talk to me. sit there, call me heartless, call me useless, call me worthless, called me lonely, and all this other bullshit. wtf kid? i was done with your bullshit long ago. sitting here, telling me that i can't let go? well who the fuck has been calling me for the past year. motherfucker, get your shit straight. hell fucking no am i gonna cry over you. you're not worth anything. fuck, go ahead and call me whatever you want. at least i'm not fucking drunk at 1 in the afternoon. at least i'm not dwelling over the fucking past. let that shit go. why the fuck do you have to keep calling me. saying that i'm still sprung over you? homeboy, you got that shit twisted cause it's obvious you're still sprung over me. i hope you fucking stay 3000 miles away from me. thinking about moving here? hah, think again. wtf are you trying to accomplish by moving here. kid, i was done with your bs long ago, so leave me the fuck alone, playa.
20090214
sometimes
sometimes it's better to live without expectations
that way, we can never get hurt
sometimes it's better to let our friends fall
instead of helping them when they stagger
sometimes it's better to live moment by moment
because day by day is just way too fast
sometimes it's better to be alone
because being with people makes you lose yourself
sometimes i wonder why i'm so crazy
i still haven't found the answer.
that way, we can never get hurt
sometimes it's better to let our friends fall
instead of helping them when they stagger
sometimes it's better to live moment by moment
because day by day is just way too fast
sometimes it's better to be alone
because being with people makes you lose yourself
sometimes i wonder why i'm so crazy
i still haven't found the answer.
20081231
new year reflection
sometimes, i forget what happens in a year. but 2008 has been a crazy ride. i remember reflecting back on 2007 no too long ago. and as i recall, i really hated 2007. a lot of really shitty things happened. i bought a journal during the new year and i reflected back in about 2 pages. it was pretty crazy. i told myself i was "greet[ing] 2008 with high hopes of changing myself for the better." i guess in a way you can see that as a resolution, but i'm not so sure myself. i've definitely changed, hasn't everyone? i told myself to stop worrying over petty things and i've gotten better at it. however, 2008 has been a year of high stress. from school to boys to work and to fam, i've definitely overfilled my bucket this year.
my goals last year were to:
-Focus on school and get good enough grades to apply to Berkley and UCSD.
-Spend more time with my family.
-Appreciate the little things in life.
-Love each day.
-Smile often and brightly.
i applied to berkeley and ucsd, no doubt, but i don't know if my grades are good enough to get in. however, i am aiming for davis. and the funny thing is, my dad was telling me about the top 3 law schools - yale, harvard, and davis. so, let's hope i get into davis, yeah?
spend for time with the fam. i definitely have and my fam has grown. the inclusion of a new older brother and his fam has been pretty awesome. actually, i spend more time with fam then i do my own friends.
appreciate the little things in life. sometimes, i appreciate things a little too late. after their dead and gone. the smiles. the laughter. the jokes. the joy. all of that. i missed them when they happened and saw myself reflecting back when they were already gone and never coming back.
love each day. somedays i wake up and i want to stab myself in the eye. somedays i wake up and i want to sing. days vary. my life - although sometimes typical - varies as well. i find myself trying to love each day, but most importantly, loving the days that truly matter.
smile often and brightly. lately, i haven't been. but for the most part of 2008, i was happy. a lot of good things - or as least a good thing - happened and it kept me happy. but when it was over, i found myself upset and tired, unable to smile. so, i don't think that worked out too well.
"even though i always say that it's the same life i've been living, i really hope this year is great. because i don't want to be living the same life. i want something new and different. i want to change it up. take risks. experience new things. all of this, it's what i truly want. not materialistic items. they just fill the void temporarily. but how can i ever ask someone "make me take risks" or "for christmas, i want change" to everyone else it sounds silly. but to me, it's what i want more than anything. i want to be different, but the same all at once. maybe i just ask for too much." - 01.07.08
2009, it's my graduating year. my year to shine. my time. my life. mine. i want more than anything to live this year to its fullest potential. i don't want to half ass my senior year. it's more than just senior year. it's my defining year. what has 2008 given me that i can carry on over to this new year?
it gave me an outlook on relationships and how somethings have to be sacrificed. i lost friends this year. i lost my best friend. someone who used to be my only brother has turned their back on me. i've lost a relatively good friend. someone i have a solid past with now refuses to talk to me or return my phone calls. things have become awkward. and then i learned that it's life. you lose things that are dear to you. at times they hurt like a bitch, but in the end it has to happen. we can't keep the friends we made six years ago or even six months ago forever. people change. commonalities diminish. we grow up. we move on.
i've learned to brush things off. don't give a fuck about the negative things people say. because in the end, what i think matters. what i feel matters. whatever anyone else may think of me, it's nothing. small. petty. useless. they aren't going to define my life. what they say. what they think. what they think they know. that's all good for them. but i can't let them taint my mind.
i no longer want to be invisible to those who matter most. my fam. they don't know me at all. they don't know the things i do or i feel. and i feel guilty for it [damn that ap lit]. i want them to see me, actually see me. understand me. and love me.
"2008, whatever you throw at me, i'm ready for it. all the obstacles before me, i'll face them head on with a smile on my face. i'm ready"
2009, you're no exception
my goals last year were to:
-Focus on school and get good enough grades to apply to Berkley and UCSD.
-Spend more time with my family.
-Appreciate the little things in life.
-Love each day.
-Smile often and brightly.
i applied to berkeley and ucsd, no doubt, but i don't know if my grades are good enough to get in. however, i am aiming for davis. and the funny thing is, my dad was telling me about the top 3 law schools - yale, harvard, and davis. so, let's hope i get into davis, yeah?
spend for time with the fam. i definitely have and my fam has grown. the inclusion of a new older brother and his fam has been pretty awesome. actually, i spend more time with fam then i do my own friends.
appreciate the little things in life. sometimes, i appreciate things a little too late. after their dead and gone. the smiles. the laughter. the jokes. the joy. all of that. i missed them when they happened and saw myself reflecting back when they were already gone and never coming back.
love each day. somedays i wake up and i want to stab myself in the eye. somedays i wake up and i want to sing. days vary. my life - although sometimes typical - varies as well. i find myself trying to love each day, but most importantly, loving the days that truly matter.
smile often and brightly. lately, i haven't been. but for the most part of 2008, i was happy. a lot of good things - or as least a good thing - happened and it kept me happy. but when it was over, i found myself upset and tired, unable to smile. so, i don't think that worked out too well.
"even though i always say that it's the same life i've been living, i really hope this year is great. because i don't want to be living the same life. i want something new and different. i want to change it up. take risks. experience new things. all of this, it's what i truly want. not materialistic items. they just fill the void temporarily. but how can i ever ask someone "make me take risks" or "for christmas, i want change" to everyone else it sounds silly. but to me, it's what i want more than anything. i want to be different, but the same all at once. maybe i just ask for too much." - 01.07.08
2009, it's my graduating year. my year to shine. my time. my life. mine. i want more than anything to live this year to its fullest potential. i don't want to half ass my senior year. it's more than just senior year. it's my defining year. what has 2008 given me that i can carry on over to this new year?
it gave me an outlook on relationships and how somethings have to be sacrificed. i lost friends this year. i lost my best friend. someone who used to be my only brother has turned their back on me. i've lost a relatively good friend. someone i have a solid past with now refuses to talk to me or return my phone calls. things have become awkward. and then i learned that it's life. you lose things that are dear to you. at times they hurt like a bitch, but in the end it has to happen. we can't keep the friends we made six years ago or even six months ago forever. people change. commonalities diminish. we grow up. we move on.
i've learned to brush things off. don't give a fuck about the negative things people say. because in the end, what i think matters. what i feel matters. whatever anyone else may think of me, it's nothing. small. petty. useless. they aren't going to define my life. what they say. what they think. what they think they know. that's all good for them. but i can't let them taint my mind.
i no longer want to be invisible to those who matter most. my fam. they don't know me at all. they don't know the things i do or i feel. and i feel guilty for it [damn that ap lit]. i want them to see me, actually see me. understand me. and love me.
"2008, whatever you throw at me, i'm ready for it. all the obstacles before me, i'll face them head on with a smile on my face. i'm ready"
2009, you're no exception
20081210
life is way too stressfull
sometimes i just need to AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH - scream. life has taken such a toll on me, i want to quit. even though MC is over, i still have school, work, mock trial, and youth court. quite frankly, i want to quit mock trial right now,but whatever. ahh in the midst of it all, i need to put aside time for family and what not. and ap literature is kicking my ass like crazy, but i am enjoying the book we are reading right now (that doesn't happen too often). but i've been feeling so OVERSTRESSED about everything. it's amazing that i haven't had a breakdown yet. i swear to freaking mormon's that i will probably get fired from my job for taking so maybe days off for mock trial. and i want to kick mock trial in the balls right now.
djfkskldsfklsd
save me.
djfkskldsfklsd
save me.
20081130
overall
i must say, this has been an amazing week.
to start, school was only two days long. it's always great when you have absolutely no work to do and everyone has holiday thoughts on their mind.
tuesday, i tuned into FM's release party for their new album ANIMAL. may i say, it was freaking AMAZING. i love my fm boys, and even though they couldn't see me, i threw up my three fingers and sang every song that wasn't new and i knew the words too.
wednesday was a early work day. i had no school and it felt weird to be going to work at 730 instead of four. but i must say, early shifts roll by a lot faster than closing shifts. i wish i could work early more often if i didn't have school. after work, it was another mini vsa moment at zummm's house. we had a thanksgiving dinner with a few close friends and spent the night laughing at SNL's 'single ladies' and watching usher rip off his shirt on tv. afterwards, it was off to henry's house to cook thanksgiving dinner.
on thursday, i woke up early from a short 6 hour sleep and got ready to head to henry's house again to finish up and to clean up his house. truth be told, i like to cook but i hate cleaning. however, at 5, everyone arrived and before we ate my sister and henry had a big announcement. they were engaged! of course, i knew a week prior by default but it was awesome to see my family and his family's reactions. but moms cried :].
friday was my birthday! yay mee. i woke up a late, a well deserved sleep. my mother told us to meet her at work and we would spend the day for my birthday. so we went to macy's and it wasn't as crowded as it probably was eariler in the morning. but we copped some nice swag (haha) and then headed in our opposite ways. i didn't do much on the actual day of my birthday. watched transporter 3 and then did some light shopping before heading to jenny's house to play a rousing game of mario kart.
saturday, i spent it with kimber and her family. we went to hmong new year and i found kingston! i must say, walking around, it reminded me of hoi cho and i wished it could be that big. best phrase of the day "excuse me, would you like to play ball with us?" haha. on top of that PROTOJ SANG HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME ON THE MIKE IN FRONT OF EVERYONE. i was cheesing like a crazy fangirl. annnd we saw iron man roaming around :]. then we went back to kimber's house to figure out what we were going to do.
we ended up going to winter formal, which was a tad bit waste of money, but funny at the same time? GET SOME. haha too bad i got molested on the dance floor by random guys and a lot of people stepped on my foot. after, we went to her cousin's house to eat or jack in the box and watch some scary hmong movie. "HOLY SHIT, SHE LOOKS LIKE A SMURF" i must say, i was quite scared even though i didn't understand anything. then i headed home.
now here i am.
this is the first time i've had a GOOD WEEK and nothing bad happened throughout the course of my week. i was deeply and truly happy :D
to start, school was only two days long. it's always great when you have absolutely no work to do and everyone has holiday thoughts on their mind.
tuesday, i tuned into FM's release party for their new album ANIMAL. may i say, it was freaking AMAZING. i love my fm boys, and even though they couldn't see me, i threw up my three fingers and sang every song that wasn't new and i knew the words too.
wednesday was a early work day. i had no school and it felt weird to be going to work at 730 instead of four. but i must say, early shifts roll by a lot faster than closing shifts. i wish i could work early more often if i didn't have school. after work, it was another mini vsa moment at zummm's house. we had a thanksgiving dinner with a few close friends and spent the night laughing at SNL's 'single ladies' and watching usher rip off his shirt on tv. afterwards, it was off to henry's house to cook thanksgiving dinner.
on thursday, i woke up early from a short 6 hour sleep and got ready to head to henry's house again to finish up and to clean up his house. truth be told, i like to cook but i hate cleaning. however, at 5, everyone arrived and before we ate my sister and henry had a big announcement. they were engaged! of course, i knew a week prior by default but it was awesome to see my family and his family's reactions. but moms cried :].
friday was my birthday! yay mee. i woke up a late, a well deserved sleep. my mother told us to meet her at work and we would spend the day for my birthday. so we went to macy's and it wasn't as crowded as it probably was eariler in the morning. but we copped some nice swag (haha) and then headed in our opposite ways. i didn't do much on the actual day of my birthday. watched transporter 3 and then did some light shopping before heading to jenny's house to play a rousing game of mario kart.
saturday, i spent it with kimber and her family. we went to hmong new year and i found kingston! i must say, walking around, it reminded me of hoi cho and i wished it could be that big. best phrase of the day "excuse me, would you like to play ball with us?" haha. on top of that PROTOJ SANG HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME ON THE MIKE IN FRONT OF EVERYONE. i was cheesing like a crazy fangirl. annnd we saw iron man roaming around :]. then we went back to kimber's house to figure out what we were going to do.
we ended up going to winter formal, which was a tad bit waste of money, but funny at the same time? GET SOME. haha too bad i got molested on the dance floor by random guys and a lot of people stepped on my foot. after, we went to her cousin's house to eat or jack in the box and watch some scary hmong movie. "HOLY SHIT, SHE LOOKS LIKE A SMURF" i must say, i was quite scared even though i didn't understand anything. then i headed home.
now here i am.
this is the first time i've had a GOOD WEEK and nothing bad happened throughout the course of my week. i was deeply and truly happy :D
20081108
cagle.com
in light of obama becoming our president elect, i decided to look up some cartoons. i now also understand why people want newspapers so badly.
in case you haven't noticed, i really like the ones with obama and mlk.
and the last one was just for fun.
hahah, go hillary??
in case you haven't noticed, i really like the ones with obama and mlk.
and the last one was just for fun.
hahah, go hillary??
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