happy belated anniversary

3 years<3

sorry i've been neglecting you.

i promise to write here more

sapphire blue - far*eastmovement

lies - gdragon feat. big bang

(gd, you talented bastard)
this video has a lot to it than just the music, flashing lights, and korean superstars.
when gdragon wrote this song he intended to use it as his breakthrough solo song. however, upon giving the song to yg, he was told that the song would be better if big bang used it as a group. instead of being some stuck up diva bitch, he gave up the song. because of this song big bang sky-rocketed. gd introduced a new concept of big bang and let them mature musically. i look up to gd. not only is he an amazing leader, but he is so selfless. sure, he has crazy ass style and sometimes his concepts make me question his sanity, but watching this video shows that gd is a dynamic person. he was finally able to perform lies as a solo, but instead of hogging the stage all to himself, he allowed big bang to come out and sing with him and he was genuinely happy about it. i know that i sound stupid talking about some celebrity that i don't even know, but i do look up to gd. there's the one part in the video where him and taeyang stand together and sing. i want to have a friendship like that. because i have no doubt in my mind that when gd was giving up lies as a solo project, he probably thought of bae (and the other members as well). he saw that he was able to help others more than himself.

only look at me - taeyang

update

i was looking at my resolutions and decided to see what i've accomplished since january

health:
create a diet and stick to it
drink more water
work out more

finances:
get a job
save up money
find a house for next year

academics:
get straight As (just once is fine)

social:
join the pre-law frat
do a little sister program
get to know people outside of apath
talk to a stranger

personal:
realize who my true friends are
appreciate my family more
take things slow
stop analyzing the little things

random, :D

tik tok - 2pm

"there's no room in my heart for anyone to come"

i'm so tired of it all.

twenty ten

oh 2009, how you flew by like nothing but wind past my face. i can barely remember what happened in the past 12 months. i graduated, got into davis, moved out of the house, and i've spent around 4 months away from home. not so great of accomplishments, if you ask me.

2009 has been a bumpy ride. so many people died and so much shit happened that i don't even feel like re-capping. it was a year of drama, laughs, heartbreak, bonding, etc. i can't even sum up this year into words but i know for sure that i'm glad it's over and that a new year is literally around the corner.

when the clock hits 12 tonight, even though it's just another day, i feel like i can start over. be a new person and change my ways. i usually don't make resolutions, but hell, i have a lot this year.

health:
create a diet and stick to it
drink more water
work out more

finances:
get a job
save up money
find a house for next year

academics:
get straight As (just once is fine)

social:
join the pre-law frat
do a little sister program
get to know people outside of apath
talk to a stranger

personal:
realize who my true friends are
appreciate my family more
take things slow
stop analyzing the little things

that list is a mouth full and a lot more. i'm looking for a lot this year. i'm tired of being "me". cause it's not really me. we all know that. why does finding myself have to be so hard. i want to be happy with who i am. i'm tired of settling and not being satisfied. i'm ready to take control of my life and make things happy. i just want this year to be stress free.

i'm done with boys. no more boys this year. they bring me nothing but headaches and trouble. it's better if i don't go looking for them cause i no longer have time to deal with all of that. i definitely learned my lesson this year. some things are just not worth worrying over.

i'm starting fresh. it's a new me that's going to face this world head on.

i'm ready